Here’s the thing Ryan. Just take a step outside yourself for one minute, look at everything that’s happened from my perspective. Honestly ask yourself if you’d be in the same position I am? You say you wouldn’t care but imagine I slept with someone, my ex, then promised you I’d never do it again. Then I repeated it, over and over again. You’d still trust me? Yeah right. You can say that but if I actually did it you’d be pissed as hell, don’t tell me you wouldn’t.
The money thing is this; you’ve been out of work since June. That’s five months to find a job. And I know it is hard, duh, I work in HR I know it is hard. But the thing of the matter is, you KNEW you had to get a job by September 1. If you had to take a job at McDonalds you should have done that instead of sitting at home watching tv week after week lying to both Sarah and I about your last job. That dude, is pathetic and embarassing. I’m actually embarassed for you- how tacky now you’ve been caught in your lies.
I gave you leeway in the getting a job, a whole month. You had plenty of time, but you are lazy and unmotivated and just a general piece of crap when it comes to getting off your ass and having drive or desire. I know that about you, but I still loved you. Not anymore. I can’t. Not when you treat me the way you treated me last night. It’s unacceptable, completely and wholly. You don’t deserve me and frankly I don’t think you ever will deserve me. You have had ample opportunitiy to prove to me you’re worthy, yet you’re still to this day making excuses for your disgusting behavior.
I’m sick of crying and feeling angry and resentful. I’m sick of being mean to you and hurting you because you just don’t get it that I don’t want to be with you. And pushing yourself on a girl who doesn’t want you is as bad as rape Ryan. If I tell you to get out of my bed, out of my room and you defiantly stand back against me and say no, you’re sleeping there? What am I supposed to do short of hitting you in self defense? You just don’t get it. You acted like a complete ass last night and I’m done worrying about it.
I’m sorry if I was harsh with you, but your reaction and definance makes me feel like I need to be that way. The last thing I want to do is kick you while you’re down. But you’re just not getting it through your head that I’m single. Which mean I’m NOT WITH YOU! If you could understand that and really wholly grasp that content I wouldn’t be as sick of you as I am. I am just frustrated and completely over doing this repeated game you seem to keep playing with me. Call repeatedly when Laura doesn’t answer, because 'hmmm…she’s going to sleep, or trying to go to sleep. She doesn’t answer so I’ll just keep calling, keep being as annoying as I can possibly be, that’ll totally make her want to take me back. Then I”ll go into her room, unlock her locked door which she obviously locked to keep me out, who cares, she’ll want me back after that awesome behavior right?'
If those are the thoughts that are going through your head you have to be somewhat mentally deficient. Honestly, it is ridiculous and everytime it happens you promise, 'never again, I’m just so sad, I’m so lost without you' blablabla. I DON”T CARE! Respect me, respect my space, or get out.
The money thing is this; you’ve been out of work since June. That’s five months to find a job. And I know it is hard, duh, I work in HR I know it is hard. But the thing of the matter is, you KNEW you had to get a job by September 1. If you had to take a job at McDonalds you should have done that instead of sitting at home watching tv week after week lying to both Sarah and I about your last job. That dude, is pathetic and embarassing. I’m actually embarassed for you- how tacky now you’ve been caught in your lies.
I gave you leeway in the getting a job, a whole month. You had plenty of time, but you are lazy and unmotivated and just a general piece of crap when it comes to getting off your ass and having drive or desire. I know that about you, but I still loved you. Not anymore. I can’t. Not when you treat me the way you treated me last night. It’s unacceptable, completely and wholly. You don’t deserve me and frankly I don’t think you ever will deserve me. You have had ample opportunitiy to prove to me you’re worthy, yet you’re still to this day making excuses for your disgusting behavior.
I’m sick of crying and feeling angry and resentful. I’m sick of being mean to you and hurting you because you just don’t get it that I don’t want to be with you. And pushing yourself on a girl who doesn’t want you is as bad as rape Ryan. If I tell you to get out of my bed, out of my room and you defiantly stand back against me and say no, you’re sleeping there? What am I supposed to do short of hitting you in self defense? You just don’t get it. You acted like a complete ass last night and I’m done worrying about it.
I’m sorry if I was harsh with you, but your reaction and definance makes me feel like I need to be that way. The last thing I want to do is kick you while you’re down. But you’re just not getting it through your head that I’m single. Which mean I’m NOT WITH YOU! If you could understand that and really wholly grasp that content I wouldn’t be as sick of you as I am. I am just frustrated and completely over doing this repeated game you seem to keep playing with me. Call repeatedly when Laura doesn’t answer, because 'hmmm…she’s going to sleep, or trying to go to sleep. She doesn’t answer so I’ll just keep calling, keep being as annoying as I can possibly be, that’ll totally make her want to take me back. Then I”ll go into her room, unlock her locked door which she obviously locked to keep me out, who cares, she’ll want me back after that awesome behavior right?'
If those are the thoughts that are going through your head you have to be somewhat mentally deficient. Honestly, it is ridiculous and everytime it happens you promise, 'never again, I’m just so sad, I’m so lost without you' blablabla. I DON”T CARE! Respect me, respect my space, or get out.
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